bad

had a bad evening today. plans were off and i had nothing to do for the whole night.

just hate that feeling when you're home alone, u can do anything u want, but there's no agenda at all, nor anyone to go out with. what happens in the end? you'll get a screaming alvinkei chugging down bottles of beer in front of the pc.

congrats to my friend seikan for entering the finals of the pwtc band competition i wanted to enter so badly. it was just the fucking opportunity i was looking for - a band competition where it's judged based on crowd reaction. damn.

very very emo just now.

like, very.

and the longer i play the guitar through my keyboard amp, the more i feel like selling off my phone to get a proper guitar amp. and perhaps gather the money that i'd get from cny, and get a nice amp around 1k+

really felt like smashing things around my house just now. somehow boredom has driven me to the point where i feel that nothing ever matters, and i just need to let out my massive frustration of having nothing to do by destroying things all around. but i didn't, and did something and bloody burst a vein in my wrist. could see the wrist becoming really red.. and painful.